A bittersweet day

I can't believe that Mason and Madison are 5 years old. At 5:41pm and 5:42pm 5 years ago my life changed forever. It's been like the blink of an eye if I think of it now. During the five years, I said otherwise, but now I can't believe it.
As they are "getting older" my role changes day by day. I see myself as Mom, caretaker, cook, personal wardrobe assistant, hugger and kisser, jokester, playmate, cattle prodder, the list could go on.

In the past two days, I've heard God talking to me. I told Amy, "you know, I've been working on listening to God," and she said, "yeah...?....?" as if, "oh gosh, what's she up to now?" Well, I don't hear his voice but just am strongly convicted to do whatever it is that "it" is. So, tomorrow is an international event called "See You at the Pole" that is student initiated prayer at the flagpoles of schools worldwide. I participated in it as a teacher at Riverview but now find my role different. I'm always thinking of guiding our children in their walk with God. Although I do it all day every day, I see tomorrow as a different day of guidance for Mason and Madison.

We will be at the pole at RE Lee Elementary at 8:10am to pray for their school, teachers, friends, family, community and anything else that strikes us. This is strictily a student led event so I guess this just has me excited/keyed up/stressed because it's out of the comfort zone of our church and home. My role is to guide them to step out and pray basically on the side of the road( for those of you who know where the pole is at RE Lee). This is just the tip of the iceberg of what God has been stirring in my heart as an official "stay at home mom" of school aged children. The safety of The Learning Tree, where they got their preschool and early foundation about God is no longer. They are in public school and all that comes with it.

My place is to "stand in the gap" for them through prayer. To pray that they will continue to embrace Jesus as their Savior and stand firmly in what they believe. And to pray for their teachers and school that it will be directed by Biblical values and high moral standards. So, see ya at the pole!

Pour out your heart like water before the face of the Lord...Lift up your hands toward Him for the lives of your children. Lamentations 2:19

Betcha never guessed I'd be posting about all that tonight! God's been using my extra time to work on this crazy brain of mine.... :)